Operation: No Operation

Here's my 2nd latest mantra...(and also a shout out to my favorite S-Dog, aka Sarah J for inspiring this mantra masterpiece).

It's called Operation: No Operation. In other words, no strategy, no worry, no convincing, no conniving, no planning, no nothing.

And I'm sure by this point, you're figuring out if this is a dating/marriage reference and the answer is yes (duh). Tangent: Sometimes I wonder what I will talk about on this blog once I do get married. Probably breast feeding, swaddling, and getting no sleep...but I digress.

I've realized in my 28 years of singledom--ok 12 years if you count when I started "dating"-- that you just can't play strategy with the Lord. Because I always lose. Life here on earth is not the game of Life. I don't spin a wheel, take 4 steps, miraculously win a graduate degree, then have twins 2 turns later. It doesn't work like that. And I think in my logistically minded brain of mine, I think that if I play it right I can grab the man and knock out a baby within a year. Think again, Suz.

The Lord is constantly teaching me and He humbles me. Because the girl who thought that this situation (the single sitch) would be solved by the time she was 23 is so, totally, wrong.

So, I'm constantly figuring things out. Like, how to not just deal with it but to be happy with life as is (see the above post). You know me by now, I've written dozens of blog posts about these things. And evidently, I'm still trying to learn the same lesson.

For now, I have no operation. And it feels nice not to strategize or to feel like I have to meet social expectations. I can do my thing, follow the spirit, and move forward (yes, my last mantra of "keep moving forward" still rings true to me).

We'll see how long I can stick with this one. But leaving Institute tonight was sure peaceful. Why? Because I had no operation, just pure confidence in myself, and a desire to trust. So I smiled at some men, had a nice one-on-one with a newbie, realized he's probably not that interested (I'm good at reading the signs), but that' ok, because I had no operation in the first place and someday there will be a guy who is SO TOTALLY INTO ME. It'll be grand.

For now, I'm controlling the controllables and THAT is empowering. Go me.